It's been a while since I've written. It's been a lengthy journey for me in processing everything that has happened. Of coping. Of understanding, or trying to. Some days are better than others. Some days it feels like it's crashing down around me. I'm not sure, even now with how well she's doing, that I'll ever be able to put this all behind me. It's changed me, changed the way I see the world, and I don't know that I'm able to overcome that or not.
Writing helps me cope, but music often speaks directly to my heart. I've only recently discovered that Ed's wife was diagnosed with cancer as well in 2022 and his new album is full of songs on how he coped. It's hard but almost feels necessary for me to listen to, to feel the words, to cry.
One of my favorites is called Vega and I'd like to share it with you :
Vega- Ed Sheeran
Rain keeps beating on the rooftop, muddying the glass
But god, I love the sound of Heaven
Sat cross-legged on the carpet
Listenin' to vinyl, trying to ignore the weather
This week was heavy, I buckled under all the weight
What can you do but pray?
And count your blessings, it wasn't any other way
Don't leave it up to fate
Fighting the tide, but the waves they will part
Light up the night, we were made to be stars
But it burns like Hell to be Vega
Clouds keep forming over this house blocking out the sun, I'm trying to keep it all together
One door closes then one opens, Gotta keep the focus, if we believe then she'll get better
The days are long but they pass within an instant, babe It is the strangest thing
I'll count my blessings, the day I see you smile again
This war we've got to win
Keep it inside, don't let no one see your heart
No one can judge, we're the same In the dark
Fighting the tide but the waves they will part
Light up the night we were made to be stars
But it burns like Hell to be Vega
Same problems, different options
Pain comes at a cost, but we've got this
Need rest-bite bleed time dry
She'll be fine, she'll be fine
Same problems, different options
Pain comes at a cost, but we've got this
Need rest-bite bleed time dry
She'll be fine, she'll be fine
Rain keeps beating on the rooftop, worrying to death
But I guess this is human nature
We are made to shine like stars
but that don't mean it don't burn
Like Hell to be Vega
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